In the project "white noise" I try to investigate the process of remembrance. There are no scientific parameters of it, so the only way to approximate, is, to avail oneself of metaphors. Here I compare the process of remembrance with the visual (and acoustic) phenomenon of electrostatic noise.
All sensual experiences are saved in our brain, but there are several fault-zones, which prevent to recall them without a loss. Fault-zones can be physical and mental condition, prioritisation and interpretation. Depending on our instant situation, our brain is able to eject memories in a specific shape, which are useful right now. In other words: we are unconsciously manipulated by our own brain aiming at self-preservation.
In this work images appear and disappear on a screen of white noise. The motives are very unclear, so the amount of interpretation is quite high. The visitor might be triggered and associate the pictures with their own memories. He also may diversify his point of view to identify the image, like memories change their shapes with a temporal distance.
For this project I used film stills and mixed them with own photographs to build a serial of pictures with high associative impact.
The Doina is a Romanian folk music style with Arabic-Persian roots. It is comparable with the Portuguese Fado or the Afro-American Blues; therefore it is a kind of lamentation. It is typical, that it has a free rhythm and an improvised coloratura of a traditional melody. The singer or musician can perfectly express his/ her emotions and virtuosity. In this work I transport the idea of the Doina to a visual point of view. The polaroid pictures show a distorted images of reality; they show places, which are displaces from their temporal anchor and in so doing transformed to representative places of longing. All photographs originated in 2015 in Timisoara/ Romania.
Today, in the digital age, the handwritten letter as a sign of communication is a relict. It is a symbol of physical absence and mental nearness between people. It is emotionally loaded . why else is it treasured in boxes or bured in anger?
In this work the "letters" operate as metaphorical bridges between the present and an idealized place of the past, which only exists in the memory.
Here an essential technique is the collage, which is quite similar to the act of remembering: Papers and pictures are combined, separated and jointed together again - a violating and healing process at the same time, like the suturation of a wound.
What's the value of a human being? Of a woman? What makes her valuable? Her beauty? Her intelligence? Her diligence? Her obedience?
There are societies, where a woman is valued as much as a property, and sometimes even less. If she rejects a proposal of marriage, if she gives birth to a baby girl, if she is disobedient, self-confident or poor, she would be "purified" in the most cruel way: by burning her face with acid. Some countries consider this crime as trivial. The offenders mostly get away with a minor penalty. But the survivors have to live on with scars, which reach deeper than to the bones.
The polaroids show survivors of acid attacs from Bangladesh, India, Pakistan, but also from the United Kingdom. A grid of pixel and a black-and-white-film cover reality and make bearable what seems to be unbearable.